Stephenie's Reflections on Dx Day # 7
Today marks 7 years since cancer officially became part of my life forever. Recently, people have been throwing compliments my way about how good I look. My hair is getting longer. I don't look as weak and tired. I can walk up a flight of stairs without taking a break... most days. I lost my "moon face" since I stopped taking steroids. I have somewhat of an appetite again. I started wearing eye liner again since my hand tremors have gotten better. It seems like it's all going up from here. But, there is a disconnect somewhere in my mind. When I look at myself in the mirror, I don't recognize myself. To everyone else, I may look the same as I did before I got diagnosed. Other people look at me and they say things like, "You don't look like you ever had cancer." People hear the word "remission" and they think that I am back to doing everything I did before. It's a nice thought and I know that everyone is just trying to be complimentary. B